Thank Goodness

Hello Readers,
Ohio FINALLY felt like spring today. Not right away, though. This morning hurt, that's how cold it was. By lunch it started to warm up a bit and by the time I picked up Noah and got home it was sunny and warm. We went on a walk in his red push car, colored with chalk, and he pushed around his "mowa"(lawnmower). I feel bad, but I couldn't take Lola. I'm just too pregnant and she is too hyper. I almost always suffer through walking them both because it gives Lola and I exercise and Noah fresh air, but it's just too tough pregnant.

Here's hoping this weekend is decent too so we can get out of doors.

Sincerely, Samantha

Lost It

After two years of being a mom you think that you are starting to get the hang of things...but something always happens that makes me feel like I have no control.

Adam usually takes the dog out in the morning, but when he travels, I get the lovely task. Because we live in a condo, I have to leash Lola, put on boots and a coat, walk her outside and then pick up her steaming pile of crap. All this sucks and then add pregnancy on top of that.

Well, this glorious morning before 7:15 am I return from the lovely task of taking the dog out to find my 2 year old ( who I have to leave alone while taking the dog out) completely naked, with a poopy diaper on the floor, poop on his hands, and all over. I was gone for less than 10 minutes. I couldn't help it, I just screamed! As loud as I could, which of course made him cry.

Maybe it's my hormones from being pregnant, but I just couldn't stay calm... I yelled. So before breakfast we had to take a bath, I did laundry, and cleaned the carpet. While Noah was in the bath, I was able to just sit and calm down, but I couldn't help but think, " why is this my life?" We are human, we have weak moments and I think it's probably important that these things happen to us to keep us humble. I guess I should just be thankful this wasn't a morning I had to work. Now I just have to get him to his 2 year check up in an hour ( where he will have to get a shot)

If you read my previous post, it's days like these that put me in favor of working. Here's to a better day.

To Work or Not to Work

I have been out of college for 6 years now. I've had some opportunities for long term classroom work, but I'm still waiting for a permanent position. In Ohio, there are so many people looking for teaching jobs and not enough positions. Every spring I send out my résumé and apply to openings( all online) and nothing happens.

Now that I'm expecting baby number two, for the first time I've been questioning working at all. I want to stay home with my new little nugget. She is due in late June and school starts in late August. If I did get hired, I'd be leaving a barely 2 month old. At the same time, I've been waiting years to teach in my own room and we really need two incomes.

I know you never get your kids as babies again, but if I work I'll be able to give them experiences that I either had or better. For example, a house with a yard, in a neighborhood, vacations, the chance to do extracurricular things like swim class or sports. Plus teachers get 2 months off in the summer and the holidays throughout the year. It still doesn't make leaving a little baby seem worth it. I hate leaving my kids with someone else, just so I can work.