October 28, 2013

Why? Rhetorical Question

This happened earlier. We just got back from a great camping weekend (pics of that to come later) and I had to take a shower. That surprisingly happened with no issues other than the baby screaming for the last 3 minutes of it. So I did a few more unpacking tasks, a load of laundry, fed Noah, and thought I could dry my hair real quick.....wrong!

I finished my hair to find Noah sitting on the floor pouring, just dumping baby powder all over his four wheeler. I yell at him all the time for this so I was SO mad! I put him in his room for a time out while I  had to take time to clean it up and I find myself asking "why? Why is this happening?" But in the same thought sentence, I know why. I'm a mom, I wasn't paying attention to a 2 1/2 year old, and Daddy left to go out of town. Even though I am clearly aware of the "why" I still feel burdened when these moments happen.

October 19, 2013

Mommy Woes

Life moves by so fast that when the weekends come I need time to catch my breath. Here we are on Saturday night, it's 9:30 and my 2 1/2 year old is still up talking to himself in bed. (I gave him a bath, he had some milk, played with my phone, threw a tantrum, and then let me rock him for a bit.) My 4 month old had her bath and is drinking her bottle now with my husband. If all goes according to plan, she will fall asleep too. Now, pre-children, 9:30 would mean hours and hours of fun, a few drinks, maybe a movie or some "cuddling". Post children.... 9:30 looks like I have about a half hour before I am going to crash.  The good news is tomorrow is Sunday, the bad news is tomorrow is Sunday. 

As a working mother, Sunday means writing up lesson plans and organizing myself for the week. Grocery shopping and pre-packing the diaper bag. We may fit in a trip to the pumpkin patch but that's about it. Oh, I forgot taking the children to church by myself because my husband will be going into work (yes, into work on a Sunday). So, in reference to my post title, mommy woes means that the stars in the show (the kids) get all the love and attention and applause, while the people behind the scenes (mom) gets zero recognition. I mean most of the time I can go on and on and not think about it, but sometimes it just hits you. I really wanted to paint my nails, get a haircut, and start working out again but none of that happened. 

Here's to an eventful Sunday and then the start of another hectic, crazy week. To those of you who read my little blog....we still have not sold our condo (dying inside every day this place does not sell)

But here's what makes the mommy woes all worth it....

October 1, 2013

Yes, I'm still alive

Holy smokes! Everything has exploded, not a bomb but maybe a firework. Not only did I have a baby 3 months ago, but 3 DAYS before school started I was hired to teach kindergarten. I have posted some pictures of the storage room that I needed to transform into a functioning classroom. 

Some other explosions that have caused me not to post in over a month in a half...still showing our house to sell it, taking an online class to update my license, and trying to mother two children.

It's been challenging to say the least. I definitely feel mommy guilt leaving the kids everyday but I've been waiting so long for my own classroom. Finding a balance is still alluding me.